Monday, August 27, 2007


Thousands upon millions
Shining, twinkling
One flies by
A shooting star
First one tonight
Definitely not the last
Second in my life
Did you see it?
Third, forth. hope wells inside my chest
Make a wish
Can you see them?
Are you looking at the same sky
As me?
I hope so. I miss you
Where ever you are, I'm thinking of you
Maybe one day
You will be looking with me
Beside me
Simply complex

Friday, May 11, 2007

For all those nights

If you're willing to chase me,
I promise I'll run slow

never say goodbye
because goodbye means going away,
and going away means forgetting.
-Peter Pan

It's more that I'm afraid of time, and not having enough of it. Time to figure out who I'm supposed to be, to find my place in this world before I have to leave it. I'm afraid of what I'll miss

Almost everyone you know,
without exception,
Has their heart all
wrapped around someone
Who will never love them back.

friend is all you'll ever be..
but I'll always secretly wish the way
you want her would be the way you want me...

I still remember the things you said.
They replay back in my head.
Your smile you used to send my way is with me all the time.
I remember all the things we did, back to the first time we met.
The memories are all I have left, how could I forget?

The best part is when you touch me,
How you hold me so
How at that very moment I want nothing more,
Than to be with you day and night.

I think everyone has a certain part of their lives where they truly wish they could just freeze time.
whether it was three years ago, today, or still to come, whether it was just a moment,
a whole day,
or a whole summer. everyone
has a time in their life where they wish everything would just stop.
the world would stop turning & people
would stop changing.
because to them, at that time, everything was perfect

People always ask, do you still like him?
& honestly, I don’t really know, but there’s
just something about him, I can’t let go

I don`'t care about the distance
I just care about you
I`d rather fight with you
than kiss anybody else.
All I want is
one chance
one nite
one kiss
to show you how much
you really mean to me

she's the kind of girl who is
constantly making mistakes &
having them shoved in her face

boy: whats your biggest fantasy
girl: to be kissed in the rain; how about you?
boy: to be the one kissing you in the rain

run outside at 3 in the morning blowing bubbles.
dance in the street in your underwear
yelling "FREEDOM!".
make an icecream sandwhich.
pretend you're a fish.
eat too many cupcakes.
take a shower in the sprinkler.
give yourself a spa in a blow up mini pool.
have a screaming contest.
eat a tube of whipped cream.
make up your own slang words.
be anything but ordinary.

She's a disaster.
She loses faith in herself every day. Her life is a mess and
she doesn't even care. No one understands her. And people
say stuff to put her down and no one even notices that she
might be breaking inside. Or they never notice that maybe she
needs a hug from someone. Or maybe all she needs is someone
to sit next to her and listen to her. Maybe that’s all she needs...

Wednesday, May 2, 2007

The last night

You come to me with your scars on your wrist
You tell me this will be the last night feeling like this
I just came to say goodbye
I didn't want you to see me cry, I'm fine
But I know it's a lie

This is the last night you'll spend alone
Look me in the eyes so I know you know
I'm everywhere you want me to be
The last night you'll spend alone
I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go
I'm everything you need me to be

Your parents say everything is your fault
But they don't know you like I know you
They don't know you at all
I'm so sick of when they say
It's just a phase, you'll be o.k. you're fine
But I know it's a lie

This is the last night you'll spend alone
Look me in the eyes so I know you know
I'm everwhere you want me to be
The last night you'll spend alone
I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go
I'm everything you need me to be
The last night away from me

The night is so long when everything's wrong
If you give me your hand
I will help you hold on
Tonight, tonight

This is the last night you'll spend alone
Look me in the eyes so I know you know
I'm everwhere you want me to be
The last night you'll spend alone
I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go
I'm everything you need me to be

I won't let you say goodbye
And I'll be your reason why
The last night away from me
Away from me

Tuesday, May 1, 2007

Go hard.

So let me get this straight.
You say now you loved me all along?
What made you hesitate to tell me with words what you really felt?

i can't help but entertain these thoughts - thoughts of us together

She’s been stuck in this stereotype
of a girl who is always happy
&& never does anything wrong

I'm Wacky & I'm Messy & I Tend To Spill Things.
I Don't Always Wear The Same Color Socks
Sometimes I Laugh When I Shouldn't.
I Am Not Flawless & Sometimes I Cry Too.
Some People Call Me Crazy Or Weird & Say I'm
Not Perfect At All & They're Right, I'm Not Perfect.
But I'm Me.

because thats what people do. they leap, and hope to God they can fly, because otherwise, you just drop like a rock, wondering the whole way down, why in the hell did i jump? but here i am, falling, and the only one that makes me feel like i can fly... is you.

To her classmates she's...
a quiet girl with a huge smile
To her friends she's...
a funny/outgoing girl who always makes them laugh
To her best friends she's...
a dreamer girl head over heels with a guy that doesn't know
To the guy that loves her she's...
the amazing girl who makes him believe in perfection
[&] To her she's...
the only girl who will never know

What a brave little girl;
instead of adding to the drama
like everyone else, she decided
to be different & not burden the rest
of the population with her problems.
She knows that in this world,
she's going to have to save herself.

dance in the streets.
sing in the hallway.
shake it like a laffy taffy.
scream at the top of your lungs.
randomly talk to people.
eat candy until you wanna puke.
throw things at the screen at movie theaters.
make a new friend.
freak people out.
trip over nothing.
do the "mary poppin" foot thingy.
fall in mid air.
push your friends into random people.
pass notes in class.
leave notes in random people's lockers proclaiming your love for them.
fall in love with someone all over again.
hug your friends.
give "special" hugs to your "special" friends.
smack a guy across the face because you feel like it.
defend yourself.
tell your parents you're glad to have them.
be crazy.
jump high over little rocks screaming, "i can conquer anything."
just live it up.

remember when ... boys had cooties,
when friends always listened to you,
when dreams were unshattered and worries were few.
when recess was too short and life was too long.
when decisions came easily with no need to belong.
when storks delivered babies
and passions werent so strong
when friendships werent broken,
right was right and wrong was wrong.
when bad things didnt happen,
only skinned knees brought tears
and the night light quieted all our fears.
when decisions were solved by "eni, meanie, mini, mo."
when boys werent so YuCkY!
and goodbye only meant till tomorrow.
when your clothes didnt need to match a
nd real friends didnt part.
and the fun went on forever..without a broken heart

boy: do you like anyone?
girl: well ... actually, its more like love.
boy: who is it?
girl: it starts with y && ends with u
boy: funny, i like that person too ..

Thursday, April 19, 2007


So I found these quotes and a lot of them pertain to how I am feeling lately......

Look at the stars.
Same stars as last week.
Last year. When we were kids.
When we weren't even born.
In a hundred years, no one
will ever know who we were,
but they'll know those same stars.

a stranger stabs you in the front.
a Friend stabs you in the back
a boyfriend stabs you in the heart
a best friend pokes you with a straw.

I think that sometimes we love people so much
that we become numb to it, because if we
actually felt how we really loved them,
it would kill us, that doesn't make you a bad person,
it just means your hearts too big.

nobody understands how much i miss you, i
miss how much we used to talk, & miss all the
things we used to do. i try not to admit it to
myself that i still feel this way. nobody knows that
i still wake up thinking of you each day. i still
think of you & i really do miss you. i would give up
everything i have to be everything we`re not.

Try not to underestimate me,
I have this habit of exceeding low expectations.

I'm selfish, impatient,
and a little insecure.

I make mistakes,
I am out of control, and
at times hard to handle.
if you cant handle me at my worst,
than you sure as hell don't
deserve me at my best.

Everyone acts like they know exactly who I am ;
like they've got me all figured out or something.
How is that even possible if I don't even know who I am

Not knowing your pretty, is beauty.
Being completely insane is better then boring.
And being in love with someone
but not telling them is just stupid

i wonder if i can tell you yet
about how much i [love] like you
but i'm too disfunctional to
reveal to you all my secrets

when there's a silence between us,
so many thoughts run through my mind
i want to ask you so many questions
about "us", i'm just too afraid of your answer

I guess that is all for now...